This is the story about Sam and Gabriel, who met in college and became best friends and lovers. Sam is the son of an ultra-religious minister in a small town. Gabriel understands Sam´s fears of coming out and when he asks him to move with him somewhere else, Sam instead announces that he is going to marry his pregnant friend, whose no-good boyfriend left her. Sam knows he has broken Gabriel´s heart, as well as his own, but he can´t tell even his best friend the secrets that led to his choices. Five years later, when a tragedy frees Sam from the need for secrecy, Gabriel returns. Does Gabriel still love Sam, and will he believe in the story Sam has to tell? This is a relatively short story and I wished that it was longer. This story is partly about Sam´s decision to leave Gabriel and the reasons he had to make the choices he made. It is a big part of the backstory and in part formed Sam as a person; however, this story is mostly about Sam´s coming out. Gabriel is out and proud, and will not live a life in secret, so if Sam wants a second chance with the love of his life, he has to overcome his fears. It is a very well written story, and it feels like that author has a clear sense of who the characters were before writing their story. There is a lot of emotional build-up, that I feel is resolved a little to quickly. Somewhere Only We Know is an engaging read.
Five years ago, Sam pushed Gabriel away because he couldn’t face his own fears about being openly gay in his small hometown. He had another secret too, but he believed no one could help him, not even Gabriel. He took actions that broke Gabriel’s heart, and his own, but then tragedy unexpectedly freed him from the need for secrecy. And Gabriel returned.
Gabriel told himself he only wanted to comfort Sam, but in his heart he knew he wanted more. He wanted answers, and he wanted Sam’s love. Just as Gabriel is convincing Sam they can be happy together, events force Sam to reveal all his secrets to his family. These revelations cause all the disharmony Sam always feared, and Gabriel can only hope that this time Sam will realize their love is worth fighting for.
Be Warned: m/m sex.
Sam climbed up into the tree, very aware of Gabriel right behind him. He balanced on the second and third rungs of the ladder as he slid the key into the padlock. Gabriel caressed the back of his thigh.
“This ladder is getting old. My dad made it when I was about twelve. If I fall, you’re going to have a lot of explaining to do,” Sam said.
“I’d catch you,” Gabriel said in a teasing voice as his hand moved closer to Sam’s ass.
Sam couldn’t help laughing as he pushed the door in, and he turned slightly to look down at Gabriel. “Catch me? You’re that strong?”
The desire in Gabriel’s eyes made his legs shake. “You remember exactly how strong I am.”
Sam hauled himself up into the tree stand and quickly rolled onto his back because Gabriel came charging up right behind him. Gabriel pinned him to the floor and captured his mouth in a hot kiss. Sam opened to him, loving the invasion, and worked his hands free. He unbuttoned Gabriel’s shirt and let his hands roam with abandon. He explored every muscle, every curve and contour. Then he moved his hands down to Gabriel’s belt, unbuckling it. His fingers teased over Gabriel’s stomach before slipping further. Unzipping Gabriel’s jeans, Sam let his knuckles graze his cock. The groan that filled the air made Sam smile.
“I love you,” he whispered against Gabriel’s mouth.
“I love you, too.” Gabriel sat back and stroked himself.
Sam eyed him for a long time, enjoying the sight of Gabriel’s slow strokes. He caressed himself through his jeans before changing positions, getting on his knees so he could suck Gabriel’s cock. Sam loved the soft sigh that escaped Gabriel’s lips. He enjoyed giving Gabriel pleasure, reassuring him of his love and desire. He’d always felt that kind of reassurance in Gabriel’s touch, and he wanted to make up for the mistake of not trusting in that feeling years ago.
Sam took Gabriel to the back of his throat and let him slide into it a few inches.
“No one ever felt this good, ever,” Gabriel said as he ran his fingers through Sam’s hair.
Sam pulled back and kissed a trail up Gabriel’s chest, letting his tongue tease each nipple on the way. He raked his teeth across the soft skin of Gabriel’s neck.
“Sam,” Gabriel said with a groan, “I want you to fuck me.”
Sam placed soft kisses across his cheek and over to his mouth. “You do?”
Sam deepened the kiss. Gabriel was usually the dominant one when they had sex, and Sam had only fucked him in the ass a few times. Gabriel always wanted it at very emotional times, when things were changing for them in some way.
“You want me inside you?” Sam asked, hoping it meant what he thought it did, that Gabriel was trusting him to truly try.
“You want to feel me claiming you?”
Gabriel practically growled at him. “Yes, Sam. Now!”
They stripped, and Gabriel stretched out on a blanket that had been shoved in the corner. Sam moved above him, tentative. They kissed gently for a few minutes before Sam said, “We don’t have any lube.”
“This’ll do.” Gabriel rolled him over and bent to suck his cock. Sam cried out in surprise.
“I won’t hurt you?” Sam asked, his voice very soft.
Gabriel ran his tongue up and down Sam’s length. “Just you try.” The words made Sam’s cock go hard as steel. He ached to feel Gabriel’s body around him even as he continued to enjoy the pleasure of his eager mouth.
With one final lick, Gabriel released him, massaging his balls for a moment. They moved back into position, and Sam lowered his body between Gabriel’s legs. Gabriel spread himself, and Sam held Gabriel’s shoulders as he entered him. He had to inch in because of the resistance, but he soon moved deeper and deeper. Gabriel’s hot channel squeezed him deliciously, and the friction went from unpleasant to blissful in no time.
“Wow,” Sam whispered.
Gabriel held his face between his hands. “Just what I was thinking.”
Sam felt Gabriel’s cock bob against his stomach, and he moved one hand to stroke him. Gabriel kept his eyes open, never looking away.
“I promise not to shut you out again,” Sam said. “I know I can face anything with you because I don’t want to face even one day without you.”
Gabriel chuckled, the sound low and seductive. “You never used to say such sweet things.”
“I’ve had so long to think about unsaid things.” He surged into Gabriel, who tightened around him. He began to fuck him harder, his own orgasm very close. The pleasure built deep within him, and he knew he would burst forth any moment. Being inside Gabriel felt so perfect as they looked into each other’s eyes.