I want him. Need him with an urgency I can’t describe. Nick’s control is what I crave—and his ability to send me on my knees and beg. Seeing his marks on my skin, his collar fastened around my neck and heart, I know he’s the one. The world says it’s wrong for me to love him. That I’m insane and too damaged to make the right decisions.
I once trusted a bad man, a twisted man, who became my entire universe, but he turned my gift against me—and Nick wears that very man’s face. I’ve past that, so why couldn’t Nick?
But enough lies and deception, it’s time I end this sorry tale. I’m seven feet from salvation, his and mine, but I can’t pull the trigger.
Be Warned: m/m sex, BDSM, sex toys, flogging
Excerpt:
I began to head back into the bedroom, but Julian caught the hem of my shirt with shaking fingers. I turned, frowning. Daylight did nothing but highlight the ugly bruises blossoming against his skin, the swollen and red marks on his wrists and ankles. I silently counted to ten in my head, in case I’d change my mind about letting Noah live.
“What?” I asked.
“Hurry back,” Julian answered, then dropped his gaze and bit his lip. “I can’t stand being alone.”
I couldn’t walk away now. Fastening my hand on the back of his neck, still bearing two straight lines of his collar, I tilted his head upwards.
“Look at me, Julian,” I commanded, letting him hear the authority in my voice. “You’ve been a brave boy, a good boy.”
I massaged the nape of his neck until he relaxed.
“Stay here. Don’t move. Understood?” I asked.
“Yes, Master,” he answered with a sigh.
That word, one word I relished hearing from my subs back the club, slipped out by accident. Noah had tainted the meaning of that word now. Shaking my head, I kissed his brow, ignoring the temptation to take his lips. Julian took initiative, trembling lips moving soundlessly, closing over mine. He’d done it now. Clasping the nape of his neck, I went in for the kill.
It was wrong to kiss him now and I knew it, but I lost control of my body. I took his mouth the only way I knew how, rough, hard enough to bruise and draw blood. Julian responded, turned on by the pain, despite what he’d just gone through. I prodded my tongue at his lips, and he opened up, obedient, so I could slip my tongue down his throat.
No resistance or reluctance on his end, only deadly compliance. I pulled away first, leaving us both panting, wanting more.
“You said you knew me, back then when I was about to strangle Noah to death. Why did you say those words?”
Julian blinked away his confusion. He thumbed at his bottom lip, still swollen from my kiss, looking thoughtful. Jesus. If I had to agree with my insane brother, it was this—Julian was beyond gorgeous, someone worth breaking, owning and seeing grow. I thought Noah taking him captive had killed any desire of his for power exchange. That kiss proved otherwise.
“You’re not like him,” Julian said eventually. “I fell hard for his charm, not realizing he wore a mask all the time, even during our sessions at the clubs.”
“And me?”
“The first time you saw me at my worst, when my fear defeated me, your first instinct had been to save me.”
Maybe this sub was more damaged than I’d realized. I wore my brother’s face. I couldn’t ignore the fact we came from the same mold. If I crossed that line, would I do the same to Julian?
{"num_reviews":0,"sku":"978-1-77339-628-6","add_this":[{"service":"facebook","annotation":""},{"service":"email","annotation":""},{"service":"print","annotation":""},{"service":"twitter","annotation":""}],"gtin":null,"id":2311,"can_purchase":true,"meta_description":"","category":["BDSM","Contemporary","Erotic ","Gay"],"AddThisServiceButtonMeta":"","main_image":{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2311\u002f2558\u002fhisbrandlove1l__17883.1522354392.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Contemporary Romance\n\nHeat Level: 4\n\nWord Count: 41, 770\n\nISBN: 978-1-77339-628-6\n\nEditor: Karyn White\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"},"add_to_wishlist_url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fwishlist.php?action=add&product_id=2311","backorder_availability_prompt":"","url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fhis-brand-of-love-by-angelique-voisen\u002f","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eI want him. Need him with an urgency I can’t describe. Nick’s control is what I crave—and his ability to send me on my knees and beg. Seeing his marks on my skin, his collar fastened around my neck and heart, I know he’s the one. The world says it’s wrong for me to love him. That I’m insane and too damaged to make the right decisions. \u003c\u002fstrong\u003e\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003cbr \u002f\u003e\u003cbr \u002f\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eI once trusted a bad man, a twisted man, who became my entire universe, but he turned my gift against me—and Nick wears that very man’s face. I’ve past that, so why couldn’t Nick?\u003c\u002fstrong\u003e\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003cbr \u002f\u003e\u003cbr \u002f\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eBut enough lies and deception, it’s time I end this sorry tale. I’m seven feet from salvation, his and mine, but I can’t pull the trigger.\u003c\u002fstrong\u003e\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"color: #ff0000;\"\u003e\u003cem\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eBe Warned: m\u002fm sex, BDSM, sex toys, flogging\u003c\u002fstrong\u003e\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fem\u003e\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e \u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eExcerpt:\u003c\u002fstrong\u003e\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003eI began to head back into the bedroom, but Julian caught the hem of my shirt with shaking fingers. I turned, frowning. Daylight did nothing but highlight the ugly bruises blossoming against his skin, the swollen and red marks on his wrists and ankles. I silently counted to ten in my head, in case I’d change my mind about letting Noah live. \u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“What?” I asked.\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“Hurry back,” Julian answered, then dropped his gaze and bit his lip. “I can’t stand being alone.”\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003eI couldn’t walk away now. Fastening my hand on the back of his neck, still bearing two straight lines of his collar, I tilted his head upwards.\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“Look at me, Julian,” I commanded, letting him hear the authority in my voice. “You’ve been a brave boy, a good boy.”\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003eI massaged the nape of his neck until he relaxed. \u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“Stay here. Don’t move. Understood?” I asked.\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“Yes, Master,” he answered with a sigh.\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003eThat word, one word I relished hearing from my subs back the club, slipped out by accident. Noah had tainted the meaning of that word now. Shaking my head, I kissed his brow, ignoring the temptation to take his lips. Julian took initiative, trembling lips moving soundlessly, closing over mine. He’d done it now. Clasping the nape of his neck, I went in for the kill.\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003eIt was wrong to kiss him now and I knew it, but I lost control of my body. I took his mouth the only way I knew how, rough, hard enough to bruise and draw blood. Julian responded, turned on by the pain, despite what he’d just gone through. I prodded my tongue at his lips, and he opened up, obedient, so I could slip my tongue down his throat.\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003eNo resistance or reluctance on his end, only deadly compliance. I pulled away first, leaving us both panting, wanting more. \u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“You said you knew me, back then when I was about to strangle Noah to death. Why did you say those words?”\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003eJulian blinked away his confusion. He thumbed at his bottom lip, still swollen from my kiss, looking thoughtful. \u003cem\u003eJesus.\u003c\u002fem\u003e If I had to agree with my insane brother, it was this—Julian was beyond gorgeous, someone worth breaking, owning and seeing grow. I thought Noah taking him captive had killed any desire of his for power exchange. That kiss proved otherwise. \u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“You’re not like him,” Julian said eventually. “I fell hard for his charm, not realizing he wore a mask all the time, even during our sessions at the clubs.”\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“And me?”\u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003e“The first time you saw me at my worst, when my fear defeated me, your first instinct had been to save me.” \u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e\r\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan style=\"font-size: medium; font-family: 'times new roman', times;\"\u003eMaybe this sub was more damaged than I’d realized. I wore my brother’s face. I couldn’t ignore the fact we came from the same mold. If I crossed that line, would I do the same to Julian? \u003c\u002fspan\u003e\u003c\u002fp\u003e","show_backorder_message":false,"tags":[],"warranty":"","price":{"without_tax":{"formatted":"$3.99","value":3.99,"currency":"USD"},"tax_label":"Tax"},"default_shipping_expectation_prompt":"","detail_messages":"","availability":"","page_title":"","cart_url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fcart.php","show_backorder_availability_prompt":false,"max_purchase_quantity":0,"show_quantity_on_hand":false,"show_default_shipping_expectation_prompt":false,"show_quantity_on_backorder":false,"brand":{"name":"Heat Level 4","url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fbrands\u002fHeat-Level-4.html"},"attributes":[],"mpn":null,"upc":null,"options":[],"related_products":[{"id":2170,"sku":"978-1-77339-420-6","name":"His by Choice by Angelique Voisen","url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fhis-by-choice-by-angelique-voisen\u002f","availability":"","rating":4,"brand":{"name":"Heat Level 3"},"category":["Erotic ","Gay","Paranormal","Shifters\u002fVampires"],"summary":"Determined Mates, 3\r\nWerewolves mate for life, and although Omega wolf Walker Fuller had been in an arranged marriage, his wolf still feels incomplete after his husband's death. Walker has his fill...","image":{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2170\u002f2412\u002fhisbychoice1l__09902.1505702907.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 22, 270\n\nISBN: 978-1-77339-420-6\n\nEditor: Karyn White\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"},"images":[{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2170\u002f2412\u002fhisbychoice1l__09902.1505702907.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 22, 270\n\nISBN: 978-1-77339-420-6\n\nEditor: Karyn White\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"}],"date_added":"17th Sep 2017","pre_order":false,"show_cart_action":false,"has_options":false,"stock_level":null,"low_stock_level":null,"qty_in_cart":0,"custom_fields":null,"num_reviews":1,"weight":{"formatted":"0.00 LBS","value":0},"demo":false,"add_to_wishlist_url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fwishlist.php?action=add&product_id=2170","price":{"without_tax":{"formatted":"$3.99","value":3.99,"currency":"USD"},"tax_label":"Tax"}},{"id":2154,"sku":"978-1-77339-401-5","name":"Winning His Man by Angelique Voisen","url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fwinning-his-man-by-angelique-voisen\u002f","availability":"","rating":0,"brand":{"name":"Heat Level 3"},"category":["Erotic ","Gay","Paranormal","Shifters\u002fVampires"],"summary":"Determined Mates, 2\r\nTaking care of his younger brother had been werewolf Steve Doyle’s number one priority for most of his life. Now that his brother’s mated, Steve doesn’t know where","image":{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2154\u002f2395\u002fwinninghisman1l__40526.1503637513.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alterative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 22, 270\n\nISBN : 978-1-77339-401-5\n\nEditor: Karyn White\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"},"images":[{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2154\u002f2395\u002fwinninghisman1l__40526.1503637513.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alterative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 22, 270\n\nISBN : 978-1-77339-401-5\n\nEditor: Karyn White\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"}],"date_added":"25th Aug 2017","pre_order":false,"show_cart_action":false,"has_options":false,"stock_level":null,"low_stock_level":null,"qty_in_cart":0,"custom_fields":null,"num_reviews":0,"weight":{"formatted":"0.00 LBS","value":0},"demo":false,"add_to_wishlist_url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fwishlist.php?action=add&product_id=2154","price":{"without_tax":{"formatted":"$3.99","value":3.99,"currency":"USD"},"tax_label":"Tax"}},{"id":2237,"sku":"978-1-77339-517-3","name":"Rightfully His Omega by Angelique Voisen","url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002frightfully-his-omega-by-angelique-voisen\u002f","availability":"","rating":4,"brand":{"name":"Heat Level 3"},"category":["Erotic ","Gay","Paranormal","Shifters\u002fVampires"],"summary":"Lost Omegas, 1\r\nAs a rare omega, Charlie has experienced and tasted hell’s finest. At twelve, Charlie watched his home burn down and his pack become extinct. He also lost his fated mate, Caleb. Ten...","image":{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2237\u002f2481\u002frightfullyhisomega1l__62393.1513722085.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 18, 245\n\nISBN: 978-1-77339-517-3\n\nEditor: CA Clauson\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"},"images":[{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2237\u002f2481\u002frightfullyhisomega1l__62393.1513722085.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 18, 245\n\nISBN: 978-1-77339-517-3\n\nEditor: CA Clauson\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"}],"date_added":"19th Dec 2017","pre_order":false,"show_cart_action":false,"has_options":false,"stock_level":null,"low_stock_level":null,"qty_in_cart":0,"custom_fields":null,"num_reviews":2,"weight":{"formatted":"0.00 LBS","value":0},"demo":false,"add_to_wishlist_url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fwishlist.php?action=add&product_id=2237","price":{"without_tax":{"formatted":"$3.99","value":3.99,"currency":"USD"},"tax_label":"Tax"}},{"id":1686,"sku":"978-1-77233-759-4","name":"His Biker Bear by Angelique Voisen","url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fhis-biker-bear-by-angelique-voisen\u002f","availability":"","rating":5,"brand":{"name":"Heat Level 3"},"category":["Erotic ","Gay","Paranormal","Shifters\u002fVampires"],"summary":"Take without asking. Kill to survive. That’s been my mantra for years. A lone bear like me isn’t interested in being rooted down, until fate threw a dirty-talking Omega with an attitude under my...","image":{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f1686\u002f1893\u002fhisbikerbear1l__47866.1457320112.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 21, 930\n\nISBN: 978-1-77233-759-4\n\nEditor: Kerry Genova\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"},"images":[{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f1686\u002f1893\u002fhisbikerbear1l__47866.1457320112.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 21, 930\n\nISBN: 978-1-77233-759-4\n\nEditor: Kerry Genova\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"}],"date_added":"6th Mar 2016","pre_order":false,"show_cart_action":false,"has_options":false,"stock_level":null,"low_stock_level":null,"qty_in_cart":0,"custom_fields":null,"num_reviews":2,"weight":{"formatted":"0.00 LBS","value":0},"demo":false,"add_to_wishlist_url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fwishlist.php?action=add&product_id=1686","price":{"without_tax":{"formatted":"$3.99","value":3.99,"currency":"USD"},"tax_label":"Tax"}},{"id":2244,"sku":"978-1-77339-531-9","name":"Love Me Broken by Angelique Voisen","url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002flove-me-broken-by-angelique-voisen\u002f","availability":"","rating":0,"brand":{"name":"Heat Level 3"},"category":["Erotic ","Gay","Paranormal","Shifters\u002fVampires"],"summary":"Lost Omegas, 2 \r\nCan a wolf earn back his mate’s trust after throwing it away? \r\n","image":{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2244\u002f2488\u002flovemebroken1l__00129.1515023973.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 30, 130\n\nISBN: 978-1-77339-531-9\n\nEditor: Karyn White\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"},"images":[{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2244\u002f2488\u002flovemebroken1l__00129.1515023973.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Paranormal Romance\n\nHeat Level: 3\n\nWord Count: 30, 130\n\nISBN: 978-1-77339-531-9\n\nEditor: Karyn White\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"}],"date_added":"3rd Jan 2018","pre_order":false,"show_cart_action":false,"has_options":false,"stock_level":null,"low_stock_level":null,"qty_in_cart":0,"custom_fields":null,"num_reviews":0,"weight":{"formatted":"0.00 LBS","value":0},"demo":false,"add_to_wishlist_url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fwishlist.php?action=add&product_id=2244","price":{"without_tax":{"formatted":"$3.99","value":3.99,"currency":"USD"},"tax_label":"Tax"}}],"shipping_messages":[],"rating":0,"reviews":{"messages":[],"total":0},"bulk_discount_rates":[],"meta_keywords":"","show_quantity_input":0,"title":"His Brand of Love by Angelique Voisen","gift_wrapping_available":false,"min_purchase_quantity":0,"customizations":[],"images":[{"data":"https:\u002f\u002fcdn11.bigcommerce.com\u002fs-21532\u002fimages\u002fstencil\u002f{:size}\u002fproducts\u002f2311\u002f2558\u002fhisbrandlove1l__17883.1522354392.jpg?c=2","alt":"Genre: Alternative (MM) Contemporary Romance\n\nHeat Level: 4\n\nWord Count: 41, 770\n\nISBN: 978-1-77339-628-6\n\nEditor: Karyn White\n\nCover Artist: Jay Aheer"}]}
[{"url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002f","name":"Home"},{"url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fgay\u002f","name":"Gay"},{"url":"https:\u002f\u002fwww.evernightpublishing.com\u002fhis-brand-of-love-by-angelique-voisen\u002f","name":"His Brand of Love by Angelique Voisen"}]
